Sometimes I can’t believe myself. The things I’ve said and things I haven’t said. The actions I took against judgements I made and the words I spoke that could have hurt if they were out into the open.  I wish I hadn’t said all those terrible things, I’d take them back, I promise I would. 

But now I’m stuck in a really far off place, not knowing which side to choose or exactly what to say. I can only try and see how far my words will go, the rest is up to everyone else. The people I’ve dissapointed and let down, I’ve hurt them too. A lot of times, I realize that I’ve only come to blaming myself, and that maybe, it isn’t my fault at all.

But I still don’t know how I could let this happen.

She needs God, there is no other way.