I can’t believe that those words could come out of her mouth. I sincerely meant everything that I said, it took a lot of courage to say those things and a lot of debating but I said them because they needed to be said. But I was shot down and wrongly judged. I didn’t deserve the assumptions she put on me just because I was a gray face below the words. Just because she didn’t know who I was, she shouldn’t have said those things, they hurt. To think that if she would have known who I was, she wouldn’t have. She wouldn’t have come across judegmental or closed minded or rude, even.

So now I’m reassured that she would not have said them if she knew it was me, but I still feel as if I haven’t gotten across to her. I achieved step one of my goal, are you proud of me Dr. Jorgenson? It took a lot of courage but I got there, and maybe it’s not right to say that everything is okay right now. Nothing is okay, but I’m still trying really, really hard.

And I’m dreaming, and I’m still dreaming. But we all have dreams, don’t we?

I’m putting them into perspective.